Over the years countless people asked me: "What will you do after your 100th date if you don't find love?"
Depending on my mood my answers ranged from:
"If I'm single I'll keep dating."
"If I'm single I'll kill myself, of course!" followed by witch-like cackling.
But seriously, if I want a partner and a relationship and real love - which I do! - then, unless someone invents some other way of falling in love, I will continue to date until I get what I want, dammit! Because I deserve it. We all do, dammit!
So what have I been doing since my 100th first date?
Not dating. Ha! It's cool if you want to let out a witch-like cackle. Instead, for the past month or so I went into a cave.
I am an ambivert, which means I'm a combination of an extrovert and introvert. Tip the scales too much in one direction and I have to compensate by going to the other extreme. After a barrage of press, and documenting my every move on various social media channels I needed to disappear, and disappear in sweatpants, I did.
My extreme introverted lifestyle fortuitously coincided with Daylight savings and chilly weather so my behavior wasn't totally weird to my fellow NYers. I watched a shit-ton of movies at home and at the theater and generally avoided the human species.
I highly recommend seeing Whiplash and The Theory of Everything, two movies about greatness and love, both of which I learned require huge sacrifices. As a person who doesn't give things up easily I wondered if this explains why I'm ok at many things but not great, and why I don't have a great love right now. But I think it's more because I haven't met the right great person to make sacrifices for.
These past few weeks I also learned that I am good at making slice and bake chocolate-chip cookies and eating all of them. Isn't that great? Anyway here's the point to this rambling...It's okay to hibernate, but not for too long.
World, I'm back! I'm back at spin class, back at NOT eating cookies everyday, and generally back at LIFE.
YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS.
I've had two first dates. Two unnumbered dates, which are two baby steps on a rocky path that may or may not lead to a great love, but either way I'm not dead so I'm dating. More on those later....
Do you have other ideas about what I should be doing after 100? Share them in the comments!